EXISTENCE

The sky is gray, the clouds heavy
Black all around
I'm all alone, just thinking
I know not of what....
I hear the ravens cry
And now the jackals howl,
But nothing moves me....not anymore.
The dead can never be raised to life
Nor can the darkness around me life....
I feel all chained
Within the prison of myself
I am a prisoner of my own making
And escape seems a far away reality.
I don't remember a time when I was free of this burden,
It was always with me....
But the realization of my ruin
Came recent....
I'm still there
Just where I have always been
Life continues around me....
The clouds move away
There's silence now
No ravens cry, no jackals howl,
Perfect silence.......
Even nature seems to sense my solitude ---------- I think
Even the sky seems clear
But my mind is still foggy
And I don't even know why......
When will my mind be free?
When will I be released,
Of this unbearable weight?
I don't know and I don't really care....
For I hardly even know
What I'm going through
Or what I'm thinking
Coz am living a life of death...
Existing but not braething....
My cup of life is empty
And so am I....
Just another leaf that was scattered
When strong wind blew.
I'll soon be swept away
To I know not where.
But I'll always be empty....
Whether here or there!!!!